Why does it seem like being lost in life means that you are lost forever? just because you're lost now doesn't mean that you cant find your way back at anytime, you're just a little lost... not obliterated.
I felt like I had to write this post just for my own thought process, but feel free to relate and learn from my words, hell even give me some advice. Anyways, what I mean by the word 'lost' is that at some point in life, you just feel like there aren't any directions to go in, you go straight ahead and still feel lost, you go backwards and whoopie you're still lost, you try all these different approaches and for some reason something inside you still feels lost.
I bring this up because lately I've felt a bit lost in my own path and have been for a while. Now I know what you're thinking, how could someone who's only 19 (soon to be 20 whoop whoop) feel lost in life already? you simply haven't lived yet... your answer is right there, I'm only 19, and I speak for a lot of us around my age, that the pressure to figure out our lives and work towards an image that has be programmed into our heads gets more and more difficult the older we get. When I was 6 I felt like a I knew where I wanted to go in my life, I wanted to be an archaeologist (thank god I threw that dream away).
When I was 11 I wanted to direct films and make movies, then I turned 12 and I wanted to make music, and for a long time that was what I wanted to do with my life, as the years went by all those dreams kept getting swished around, when I was 17 I wanted to be a psychologist and get a PhD, I wanted to drop the whole music act because I felt like it wasn't going any where, like my life had to change course and that everyone would be happy if I had some type of actual job in the future and not some dream chasing music... but then again the years went by, a month before my 19th birthday I dropped my studies in psychology and wanted to do photography, I wanted to be a photographer I wanted to show people my photos ad be recognised as a photography but here I am... coming up to a year later... I am lost in life... yet again.
Over the past couple years I've changed my mind about what I wanted to do with my life so many damn times, whether it was something I loved doing or something I simply did to make others think higher of me (like taking advanced maths to seem smart because who the fuck does that?). And even now, I thought I would have thought my shit through already, I thought I would know what direction I should go in but I don't... AND THATS OKAY. Whether you're almost in your twenties like me or younger or older, being lost with your life is ok, something will pop out and make you realise what you have to do, I'm not saying you just have to sit around and wait for things to happen, do things that make you happy, or things you never tired before, because if you just stay put you'll never move anywhere, you'll just stay lost. You don't follow a map by standing in the same stop pointing in the direction you need to go in, you follow that direction, and if you get lost going that way walk back and try another direction till you find the treasure... or some spiritual quote like my point is, it's ok to feel lost in your life, its YOUR life, everyone processes things in a different time, just because you see someone else has something figured out early on doesn't mean that you wont figure it out at some point.
I hope this post helps anyone who feels like they've hit a dead end, I know you're tired of feeling that way, I am too, we all are, but you just gotta keep on looking for that path, cuz life isn't a yellow brick road, it would be too easy if it was that way, think of life like rainbow road from Mario kart but NOT as difficult.